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10/22/2015

Audrey Karrasch: 'Euphoria;

“Euphoria” is a song about desperation, fear of abandonment, co-dependecy, and the crippling reality of living without something that once made you whole. Desperate for love and the state of Euphoria to last forever.

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“Euphoria” is a song about desperation, fear of abandonment, co-dependecy, and the crippling reality of living without something that once made you whole. Desperate for love and the state of Euphoria to last forever. Love like an addiction is something we are powerless to. Always craving for something greater to comfort and complete me. Detatchment leads to delirium and restless nights. Lying to myself and screaming out “You can’t go… We Both know..” Stuck in a vivid dream that won’t end. Not ashamed to admit my need for acceptance and the comfort this “Euphoria” gives me. 

 

The video takes place within a dark dream. The dark hands and bodies seen throughout the video represent every thought and fear that haunt me and control me. My insecurities, my loneliness, my addictions, my failures. The loss of the state of Euphoria I was previously living in left me helpless and restless in bed. Over come with emotion. Having to face the reality that I am alone. We really wanted to convey this vulnerable state in the right way. When you’re broken you’re without conviction. I was embracing all of these shade figures yet still fighting against them. Fighting for my own sanity but terrified of the unknown. In a nightmare fighting with myself. The VHS scenes are the only evidence of my blissful past. Those memories are all that consume me. They keep me in my bed but they’re the only motivation I have to get up. I convince myself I can fight for my life. That I can make it on my own. I drive far to empty the trunk and dispose of everything that haunts me. I think I’m in control but I am powerless. The more I resist the more I only harm myself. Hands are tied and I completely surrender. I can only submit. After admitting my own defeat I am free. This honesty gave me freedom. 

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